Livin a Dream......

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-10-08T14:03:00

2005-10-08T18:10:17Z

Live journal is boring...
there is never anything to talk about in here ... watch .. umm oh i got something, I have been chillen wit Hughie Sarah n Eric for the past like week or two, its tight! I wanna go to a fucking haunted house mann. Im gonna see if Hughie, Eric, n Sarah might wanna go tonite. My mom and I are goin to see my nephew Ty today, Im so excited hes sooo fucking cute.... Holly is having a girl, but I fergot the name. Im goin to her baby shower but i still dont know wut to get... hmmm idk
yea well im bout to go so i might write in here lata some time

Peace
xoxo

if Im on Talk to me on AIM
Fatal Dream88

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-09-12T18:21:00

2005-09-12T22:31:53Z

OKKK so, I didnt really write in here anymore cuz there is nothing to say... I do pretty much the same thing everyday(chill wit Hughie) but sometimes its more fun than normal cuz we actual find things to do. I have been goin to Sam's alot to see her and Tylor**i spelt it wrong in lasts entry** My mommy n me have started on this diet thing and I hope it works... well let me rephrase that .. I hope I can stick to it. My goal is to lose up to like 30-35 lbs. but then again when i minus that from my weight i wont weigh much... but its not the weight that matters its the fattness, and im fat ok well im not fat im chubby!! There I admitted it, Im not FAT!! :-) I have a new nephew.. its Jason and Jen's boi. His name is Ty Shawn Thomas born-August 29, 2005 @ 8:40 P.M. Weighing 7lbs. 14oz. n 20.5 inches!!!! He is soooo ADORABLE!! Look--> --> http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?p=999&gid=8335634&uid=3524956&members=1

School has been OK! I guess you could say im pretty much a loser... I do nothign but hang out wit Hughie and do w.e we can find to do. I wish summer would come back :-/ but noo, MY LIFES A PEICE OF SH*T ..just playin well I dont really have much to say so just leave comments if you want ... please .... OOO I might have plans .... :-P HA U SUCK!!

Dukes home ... not that i see him but im just sayin ... it dont matter to me...

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-08-23T12:35:00

2005-08-23T16:46:25Z

Well since I havent wrote in here in a while I decided I would...
School is almost here n Im still a sophmore so i go to get my schedule tomorrow... I went and saw Sam yesterday and I found out Nick moved up north.. so thats gotta suck for her... and since I never said anything I decided I would now... Tyler Alexander Shrake!! July 8, 2005 :-) Hes sooooo cute.. I havent been doing anything really... amber has been ignoring my calls for some odd reason... i dont really talk to patsy that much....
well im out so comment fuckers....

xoxo

but im talkin to patsy so thats funny

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-08-01T01:27:00

2005-08-01T05:34:29Z

I just got back from Oscoda(camping) w/ Amber... It was Awesome for the most part! I met a lot of tight people... but anyways... On wednesday the 3rd me n muh babi have been goin together for 5 months!! It seems like so much longer but its good! Next Tuesday me, muh family, n Hughie are going camping for a week!! I think its gonna be tight cuz Joel n Hughie are both gonna be there, and they are the best people! n Oh yea, This weight loss BS i've been trying to do is sorta helping... I guess I gotta keep on trying... and if i ever get pics from us camping ill post them! But yea, so far I have been doing good... not much drama in muh life besides Hughie... but that never changes.. its my fault for falling in love wit him :-( **blushes** I cant wait till I get older, I just want to know what the future holds for me and everyone in my life!! Well, I hope everyones summer vacation is doing good n goin safely!!!

Suprise Suprise... Me n Hughie just got into another Fight! Hes the perfect person but he just doesnt understand... He thinks hes doin so much better, but now hes just gettin worse... Who really wants their b/f or g/f calling them 5 times in a row if u dont answer, not letting you get off the fone when yew want, always has to be attached to you and so on... Im not like that, I mean yea I've been chillen wit Hughie for the past 5 months, but I need my own space, Its like he doesnt trust me wit w.e I do! and If you cant trust me then fuck you. I love him with all my heart, I really do, its just so hard sometimes!

LeAvE mE cOmMeNtS

LoVe AlWaYs

*LaUrA*

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-07-21T00:39:00

2005-07-21T06:04:42Z

No one really writes in their
Journals anymore!
So I dont see why I write in here
.........

Have a fun summer!!!

LoVe AlWaYs
*Laura*

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-07-11T15:58:00

2005-07-11T20:07:10Z

Well, My computer has been fucked for the past... who knows how long! So thats why I havent been online in a long while. Nothing has changed really, besides I've been goin up to Port Austin a lot. The end of July Im going camping in Oscoda wit Amber n her rents, and the middle of August Im goin camping by Muskegon wit most of my CRAZY family n of course Hughie. Me n Him are doin good, well we fight a lot... I guess.... its mostly about stupid random things, but it dont last long. But anyways.... I am at ambers right now, I stayed the night and now we are just getting ready. I think Patsy wanted to hang out today but if she does she will call me ... cuz i dont want to interupt her or w.e. But yea, My life is good, I mean come on its fucking SUMMER!! well I gotta go so have fun everyone n be safe .... HA HA

LOVE ME!!!

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-05-18T22:41:00

2005-05-19T02:46:21Z

Well, I've been doing nothing
this whole week besides hanging
out with Hughie!! He is probably
coming to Port Austin wit me n my
mom on Friday till Sunday...
thats gonna be sweet!
Well When I have something
interesting to say and when people
will actually comment then Ill right more
i really dont see why i just dont make
this journal private....

hmm
who knows

I love Hughie

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-05-09T23:09:00

2005-05-10T03:16:30Z

hmmm I went to Port Austin Saturday n Sunday!! I cant wait till summer so I can go up there and do everything :-) n have everyone come up there!!!! I want Hughie, Patsy, n Joel to come up there but Idk if Patsy is gonna come!! Which TOTALLY SUXS!!!! My mom said that she dont think Patsy will come up there as much cuz of Paul, that she will miss him to much n cuz of people being there, like joel n whoever! But I hope thats not true!! I talked to David today! It was interesting... Im glad he called me, hes awesome as a friend, but yea. There was some stupid drama that went down cuz I hugged Duke, n he was drunk so he thought w.e he thought, n was very immature about it. Hes 18, couldnt he act a little more mature than that!!?? guess not!!!!

Well im out, have funn everyone

I havent hung out wit Patsy in like forever, besides school!! :-/

LoVe AlWaYs
:-*

COMMENT PLEASE!!

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-05-02T16:12:00

2005-05-02T20:13:44Z

since its 4:12 I thought I would update!
No one rights in this thing anymore...barely
hmmm I have 2 candles :-) Blue n Green
yea, thats probably why people dont write in
here no more, cuz people just ramble on about
nothing. Well At least I do.... lol
Wow, so boring, Oh, tomorrow is 2 months
for me n hughie, it seems like so much longer!

Well hve fun, Ill probably write more later..

Love yew...

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-24T23:03:00

2005-04-25T03:14:12Z

Wow, Things are goin good!
Im very proud!!
I dont have to think of what a shitty day the next day may be like! I go to sleep thinking what exciting is gonna happen tomorrow! I really like it this way, I no longer have to trick myself into thinking I am happy! Even when I was happy I really wasnt! The littlest thing would set me off, maybe just in my head, but the point is, is that it set me off. Although, I will admit, I was very good at acting happy, and people bought it! Sometimes I still have those feelings about some people, but I realize life works in mysterious ways and it obviously happened for a reason, but The feelings still come across my mind. If I could stop them, Im honestly not sure if I would. But Im happy, and I hope to stay that way. I have what means the most to me, and I dont intend to lose any of those things. I just hope the same happiness to everyone else. Everyone deserves it, no matter who yew are, cuz I as well as many many other people know what its like to be unhappy!
Those are just some things I wanted to get off my chest.
I love all my friends, family, and Hughie!
n To everyone out there serving for our country, I do think your crazy but Im glad yew have the balls to do it. I hope the best for all of yew!

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-18T22:20:00

2005-04-19T02:24:10Z

I love Hughie!!
He is my world!
I dont care what happens
or what people THINK
I know whats going on and thats all that matters!

My world wouldnt be the same without him
and other people that SHOULD know who they are

I love my mom!
Im sorry I hurt her, unbelievably sorry,
but she automatically assumes the worst of me :-/

Im so changing my way of life
For the most part for myself, n
also for everyone I ever hurt!

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-16T02:13:00

2005-04-16T06:16:59Z

Wow, I love Yew!!

Sometimes I wonder what the future
would be like if the past worked out

N sometimes I wonder what the future
would be like if it stayed the present!

okk
Yesterday was Hughies b-day, tomorrow Im goin
to my sisters, to have a lil birthday party thing
Ill miss yew guys!
hit up the cell to talk

I love yew Hughie!!
N everyone else!

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-13T23:28:00

2005-04-14T03:38:06Z

Hi!!
I had a good birthday, besides the fact that Hughie had to work! But hey, at least he is doing something good! Lol Yea, my sister is throwing me a little birthday party thing, so thats gonna be cool. I really wanna hang out wit Jezka, I miss her so much! I need to die my hair n stuff! Hughies birthday is on friday. I dont know what to get him. OMG!! I talked to my brother Jeff yesterday, I really didnt think he would call me n he did! I was just thinking how that really upsets me, My brother Jason didnt even call me, thanx alot. I love how that works!!!! I wish he wasnt so distant but hey, people change, n I guess people dont think they need their family anymore. IDK he just irritates me. I love Hughie! I wonder how our relationship is gonna work out. I love him n I realize he loves me too, n thats hard for me to do! Idk... I love everyone out there! I miss yew all. Eventually Ill have one of those days when I will just let everythign out n liek make a list of people n write things about them, like I did a while ago. That was fruity tho.

Duke is in the hospital, I wanted to go see him but who knows.

well im done for today!

I love Hughie

Much love Everyone

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-11T22:26:00

2005-04-12T02:27:57Z

01. Who are you, what's our relationship?
02. How and where did we meet?
03. What's my middle name?
04. How long have you known me?
05. Tell me one good thing about myself?
06. When you first saw me, what was your impression?
07. My age?
08. Birthday?
09. My favorite band at the moment?
10. Colour eyes?
11. Do I have any siblings? (If so, how many and names)
12. Have you ever had a crush on me?
13. What's one of my favorite things to do?
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?
15. Describe me in 3 words?
16. Name 5 things I love?
17. Do you think I'm good looking?
18. How would you describe me to someone?
19. Would you ever date me?
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did?
21. What do you like most about me?
22. If we could spend a day together, what would we do?
23. Have we ever gotten in a fight?
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years..truthfully?
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it?
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

MY B-DAY IS TOMORROW!!!
iM NOT SURE HOW THE DAY IS GONNA GO, BUT WE'LL SEE! HUGHIE HAS TO WORK, N IDK WHO ILL HANG AROUND WIT! :-/
IM SUCH A LONER

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-10T21:33:00

2005-04-11T01:40:31Z

Im not liking the way this week is starting off, My birthday is tuesday n So far today has been crazy. I dont even wanna get into it, but its not been that good of a day. My mom , Rick, Jezka, i just dont know!
I know I love Jezka and I dont know wut I would have done ... omg .. ok im gonna cry!! Alright ...

I love yew Jezka! You mean so much to me, no matter if we havent hung out in a while or not! I love yew n yew are my gurl no matter WHAT!!!

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-10T21:31:00

2005-04-11T01:31:48Z

Would u.....

Strip for me?

Let me strip for you?

Give me a lap dance?

have sex with me?

go down on me?

let me go down on you?

69 me?

Do me in a public place?

Bring me home and do me in your bed?

in your parents bed?

in a car?

Take advantage of me if I was drunk?

Take advantage of me if i wasn't drunk?

Let me take adventage of you?

Touch me?

Let me touch you?

Hook up with me?

Kiss me?

**re-post to see what ppl wanna do with you** :)

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-10T00:42:00

2005-04-10T04:42:36Z

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started doing really bad drugs:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-06T20:44:00

2005-04-07T00:46:45Z

Honestly
If yew read this comment
I want to know who still reads this thing
Even though no one will comment because they
obviously cant afford the 1 min. task!
or Can you?

Im having a GOOD day!

me n my mom are goin to run tonite
well she says she is too old so shes walking
:-P loser

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-05T22:08:00

2005-04-06T03:04:07Z

Today was very nice! I was talkin to Jen and she asked how Michigan is and I said shitty, cuz Arizona is better. :-( I wish I could live there but then again I dont. AHH lol! Im so bored! Im talking to my baby! I want to go to Port Austin so bad! I cant wait till summer, but I have a feeling for sum reason its not gonna be the same, mainly cuz of all this shit that went down wit Patsy, Paul, n Joel. But idk! Yea! I love my baby forever. My b-day is in a week. Its not like it matters, Its just another day. Wow, I am being so negative. Im having weird thoughts, Im not sure about what, but My mind is confusing me. BLAH who knows. Sam went to the hospital today, but She is good now. Hughies b-day is in 10 days so thats cool. Sometimes I just wish I could go back in time n see how things would have turned out If I would have done different things. Yea, see idk what I am talking bout but Its confusing me. My body aches. Idk y. Hughie makes me happy, he really does.

I hate to say it but I always wonder wut would I be doing if Hughie didnt come along. How would my feelings for Duke be. When I saw him yesterday He kept telling me to go over by him. I wish I would have went over there, just to see what he would have said. He kept giving me funny looks. People are probably gonna take this the wrong way but w.e! He was my first actual LOVE n its not like I can just never say anythign about him, so honestly if yew think I have said sumthing wrong cuz Im with Hughie then dont read my journal. But w.e I love Hughie and I can say anythimg I want about Duke! n any other person! Ok yea, I think Im done! I dont wanna give people the wrong idea.

Sorry

I love Hughie

OMG I just thought about Hughie wanting to go to the marines! That sux. What if me n him are together(well i hope we are) n he goes, that will be so hard on me, I already had to go through the hole Duke n Navy bullshit n we werent even together.... I swear sumtimes I hate this country!
but w.e.

I got bored

2005-04-04T00:51:57Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Laura
Birthday:	April 12
Birthplace:	Detroit
Current Location:	Clinton Twp.
Eye Color:	Green
Hair Color:	Blonde
Height:	5'4"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Dutch, German, Spanish, Scotish, n English
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Jordans
Your Weakness:	Myself
Your Fears:	Bridges, porcelan dolls, n other things
Your Perfect Pizza:	Pepperoni, ham, n BACON
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Getting my grades up
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	uhh
Thoughts First Waking Up:	I want a square
Your Best Physical Feature:	My eyes
Your Bedtime:	When I go to sleep
Your Most Missed Memory:	When I was young
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Mc Donalds
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	NASTY
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	NASTY
Do you Smoke:	Yes
Do you Swear:	Yes
Do you Sing:	No
Do you Shower Daily:	Yes
Have you Been in Love:	Yes, but It was different
Do you want to go to College:	Yes, hopefully
Do you want to get Married:	Yes
Do you belive in yourself:	Sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	I dont think so
Do you think you are Attractive:	Not at all
Are you a Health Freak:	I wish
Do you get along with your Parents:	For the most part
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Not really, unless I have sumone wit me :-/
Do you play an Instrument:	No
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	Yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Yes :-/
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Not really, Well I have gone places wit my baby, but not really a DATE
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Hell No
In the past month have you been on Stage:	No, Im not that type of person, Im way to shy
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Ha, not the past MONTH!!
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No
Ever been Drunk:	Yes
Ever been called a Tease:	Plenty of times.... :-P n I find it quite amusing
Ever been Beaten up:	No, unless yew include fucking wit my brothers
Ever Shoplifted:	Yes, but I dont anymore, n wont
How do you want to Die:	I always said get hit by a train, but I think I just want it to be quick n painless
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Im not exactly sure where Ill be in life so idk.
What country would you most like to Visit:	Africa, but only for like 5 hours, it would freak me out
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue
Favourite Hair Color:	Blonde
Short or Long Hair:	Short
Height:	Taller than me
Weight:	idk
Best Clothing Style:	I guess now a days yew could call it being "ghetto"
Number of Drugs I have taken:	.......
Number of CDs I own:	Im not sure
Number of Piercings:	my ears
Number of Tattoos:	none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	:-/ Who knows
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-04-03T01:37:00

2005-04-03T06:44:01Z

Ok, so I havent wrote in here in a long time, but its because my computer has been fucked up and Carol fixed it, so now I will be writing a lot more. There has been lots of things going on. Yew all know how that goes. Me and Hughie have been together for a month :-) but it seems like its been so much longer. He got me this GORGEOUS ring :-) n lots of other stuff lol. I love him so much. Everyday I realize how much more I care about him. I never EVER thought that me n him would work out but I am so glad I didnt fuck this up when I had that stupid oppurtunity. Yea I know what I am talking bout. ANYWAYS there has been sum shit goin on between Paul n Joel n Patsy, cuz Joel calls Patsy or w.e IDK All I kno is that I am not liking it. I wont even get into it cuz Its not really everyone elses buisness but w.e ... I just know i love yew all :-)

Comment if ya really wanna but I dont even know who reads this thing anymore so w.e :-P

I love my baby n No one can change that

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-03-11T17:55:00

2005-03-11T23:07:53Z

heyyyy wud up doe!! I havent wrote in here in like a long time...
I miss some people!
I really wish I could just have someone tell or me wut to do, I know I cant but it would work so much easier! I dont know why I feel so confused, but I do! I mean I am happy but Im not! Idk, see im so confused and lost and yea, See I cant even understand myself! Wow Im a fruit!! I need to get away from things, Im not sure where to or why i need to go but I just no that I need to. Yea well Im sorta talking to Patsy and her mom so yea!!
Im out

I Feel good when Patsy and her mom talk cuz it makes me realize how tight of a bond they have and its awesome, but Someday me and my mom can talk about anything and yea, but I actually like that me and my mom dont have that close of a relationship... its better!!

Love Always
Laura

:-*

Grind on me .... I loveeee that songggggg

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-02-20T12:14:00

2005-02-20T20:15:02Z

And I told her

Hey you should kill yourself!

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-02-20T01:57:00

2005-02-20T07:14:18Z

I am guessing that this will be a long ass entry, cuz I am just going to let most of the shit that flows through my mind out, which will mostly be about David prolly. Well yea here I go, Me and David broke up on the 15.... he told me we fight to much and he hates it, so he wants to take a break. Well he keeps telling me he loves me, but I dont get how he can love me and be wit her!? and Today David called me, the first time we talked since we broke up, and he tells me that Jazzy called him and said that me and meffer had sex, and I told him that wasnt true, and he didnt believe me, then Jazzy called me and told me what she told david and she said to go along wit it and all that, but I told her I cant, cuz its messed up, and she said to think of how he hurt me and that it is pay back, but thats wrong. So he found out more details and belived me. Why would I do that to him, I cant even hug another person without thinking of david. What hurts me the most is that David tells me he loves me, but hes wit another girl. He lied to me, he said he wouldnt hurt me and all that BS, n I belived him...Im so mad at myself! THEN he tells me to go and be with other people too, I cant do that, is he fucking retarded. I love him and want him. I got my camera devloped today, and there are pics of david, and this one good pic of me and david:-/ I just wanted to cry. I miss him so much, I feel like I can barely breathe when I think about him. All of my memories for the past 6 weeks, are of David. How am I supposed to just forget about that. In a way I am hoping he will realize he needs me and will want to be together again, but then I dont want to make it seem like everytime he bails Ill always be here, cuz I wont. But I want to be, I really do! See how confused I am. I want to be wit him, but I dont want my heart to keep breaking, cuz it can only break so much! I wish I could go back. I would be wit David every second of the day, never fight. Idk, I think I might be expecting to much from him. I listened to what he told me to do. I proved to him and myself that I could love again, and for what, for my heart to break. I really think me and him have to talk, Face to Face, and get everything settled. It kills so much to hear him say "i love yew", cuz I just think about him and that other girl, and how he cant love 2 people. I probably sound so pathetic, but I cant help it, I really cant. I want him more than anything, he made my life actualy feel worth living for. I was so excited to sleep and wake up to a new day and being one more day closer to the rest of my life. But now hes gone, hes out of my life and I dont know what to think when I go to sleep. I think of how my life was wit David. I know words could never get us back together, but I have to let it out, or Ill go crazy. I just wish I knew what he was Truly feeling. He could tell eeryone somethng different, fuck it, he could tell everyone the same thing but still mean the opposite!! Idk, Im so confused, so heartbroken, so lost. I thought he cared about me, I thought he loved me. I was wrong.... arent I always. I gave him my heart, my soul, my body, and he threw it all away. :-/
I havent had a REAL conversation wit Jezka in so long, I dont know what she thinks, or what she wants anymore. I miss her
Amber needs me, n I will be here for here and i always will, no matter if we hangout or not. she knows she will always be my shoulder to lean on.
Patsy, me and her are getting close again and I love it. I missed her so much. I just hope we dont drift apart, she makes me so proud of myself for some reason!!!!
I have to say that my week would have really sucked without the Carneys(Joe n Ryan), Andersons(Timmy, Keith, n John), Gonzales'(Joel), Thomas'(sis)!!!

Thanx to everyone, and I hope everything works out for everyone, better than it did for me.... I guess we can only wait and see and let not only me be a victim but also time!!!!

David was my life.... I would do anything for him and I dont get why he dont realize that, I would sacrifice so much for him, I just want him to know I feel so weak without it, I thought we could have made it last..... but maybe its cuz hes still young and wants to have fun? who knows, obviously not me!!!!!!
:-/

fatal_dream88 @ 2005-02-13T15:24:00

2005-02-13T20:27:57Z

Happy Birthday Jezka

I love yew so much n I hope your day is awesome, I dont know what I would do without yew... yew need to call me so we can find a time to hang out, it seems like its been forEver since we hung out :-/

Sweet 16!!!

Love Always!!!!!!!!!!!!